augh. I apologize to everybody today.

good news of the day: got into Spanish 3-4 Honors and staying in English Honors. Dono about the rest yet. Ah well.

Bad News: BAD GRADES. I was crying soo hard afterschool and during 6-7th period. I tried smiling for OT practice though. I didn't want people to think there was something wrong. If you guys don't see me @ Ro events anymore you'll all know why. I'll miss you all. =*[
god these, past few days are so hard on me. I don't think I really felt happy for a while now. I hate it all. I'm never attentive or caring about anything anymore. Nothing matters anymore to me. This doesn't include grades in general. I nearly fell off the stairs going up to the second floor after school today. I was in such a wreck. People were "hey tiff" i was "....fuck off" I hate crying. I never do that. That's fucking shit. and that's the last thing i need right now.

i'm missing everything right now. I blew off people yesterday, i'm blowing off steam today... I feel so guilty for not even caring anymore. I'm losing everything I've ever worked for. My friends seem to know what they all want and how to get it, but I feel like I'm the one who's struggling jus to stay alive. Why is everything so easy for them to accept?


sorry about the melodramatic shit. I'm just having problems right now. Damn it, i dont even have anybody to talk to it about it...everybody's too caught up in themselves and thier perfect l